Life in the Valley
After a few months of being at my new command I’ve dealt with a few challenges and changes in my life. New coworkers, new friends, new apartment, and a new life. While I do like the freedom of being back in the states, there are still days I grieve my life and friends back in Cuba. It was quiet and simple out there. At the same time being back in the states gave me the opportunity to meet new friends and grow my faith in Christ. As I grow closer and closer to God the more challenges I face. As I deal with these challenges I’m learning that I can’t deal with this alone and I need to start asking for help. Dealing with a new health concern and getting diagnosed with an S curve scoliosis my career in the military is unknown but with God by my side I know I can face anything and that I don’t have to worry because He has a plan for my life. All I can do right now is take it one day at a time and trust Him to guide me where He wants me to go. With being homesick and grieving my friends from my last commands, He has already blessed me with a community and a family that shows nothing but the love of Christ. Reminding me that I’m never alone. Even though it's going to take time for me to open up and tear down my walls to be vulnerable. I know deep down that they will be there when I need them the most. I still struggle to ask for help when I do need it. I still tend to isolate myself when I’m going through something. It’s something I’m still learning to do because although I have made some new friends and I’m surrounded by people all day at work I still feel alone. My depression and anxiety are starting to slowly creep in and to be honest I’m terrified that I’m going to go down the same path I recovered from a couple years ago. I’m terrified that I’m going to fall into the same pattern and same mindset. I’m trying to focus more on my music and let it be an outlet for me to express myself when I struggle to find the words to share. At the end of the day I will continue to put my trust and lean on God because His love, mercy and grace is greater than the pain I’m going through. He will always be my strength when I am weak.
